I am, She is, She was,

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• wwuut?
• I spelled what wrong. but it is a lot more fun to say it like " wuutt..."
• Okay, anyway.. what is this chat gonna do for me?
• hmmm.

On another note.

I hooked up with my Ex that I was with on and off for three years… the only problem with that is he has a girlfriend, so.. go me right. scandalous. I am going to pretend it never happened. Bad girl..

I am..

Bipolar. That is new. I mean I guess I should have seen the signs considering my mother and her father has it. She also hears voices. so hopefully that’s not me… 

I would rather not lose my mind like they did.

So lately…

I’m waiting, I’m giving two months of no leaving, just giving and hopefully this is what its gonna take (: March 17 everyone! Wish me luck!

The meet up

We all finally met up about 30 minutes later at the High school. My truck at the time was the biggest so we just opened the back up on a hot summer night, had music playin and goofed around. gregory decided to sit in the back with me while A, Mel and White stood outside of the back and we were all just talking, then Gregory made his move. he put his arm around me leaned me down to him and we just stayed like that for the rest of the time there. me laying with him and cuddling. So stinkin cute. later we all went back to my place and talked around the pool havin a good ol time. everybody started leaving and it ended with me white and gregory. well it was almost time for them to go so white went back to the car while gregory was saying goodbye to me, he kissed me. spiderman style too. To this day he believes I dont remember when our first kiss was and its so sill because I just act like I dont. I really love it when he tells the story thats all. any way after that kiss he left and all was well for a little bit but little did I know what that kiss and that night was going to bring to me…

The Fair

By this time I had started to hang out with coworkers one in particular was Mel. I had texted Gregory every now and again and he devised a plane that we all meet up at The Fair. and that we did. at first I broke off from the four girls I was with in order to find fried twinkies! Toni came along. That is where we found Gregory, in that area and of course like always our attatchment and chemistry just shined through.. for the rest of that night we flirted and had fun and didnt think anything of it. others did and we ignored their remarks. Mel and toni didnt seem to care either haha. so by the time the fair was closing down we were looking for a place to go, so we all decided to meet up at our old high school, or their old high school rather. Gregory had brought his three friends and I had my girls but the only one that was going to be with us was Mel. After we devised the plan we all went our separate ways. 

When I came back

I came back from vacation relieved of all of my past life woes. everything had been taken care of and I felt it was time to move on. I came back to my new home and went back to work, started hanging out with Mel and thats where the drama began. Mel was my girl and had been my girl since I first started working there. I had a best friend though and like I said I didnt mix business with pleasure but I needed a friend and she was there so I went for it. we’d hung out a few times before The Fair and she always talked about this Ben character (not my Ben) but her Ben who had been messing with her head and treating her like dirt so me being a girl that just got out of that was trying to guide her away from him. but like me… she wasn’t about to break the cycle.

Breaking point

Now months had past and Gregory and I were still at eachother necks half the time until one night his brother came in. His brother saw us interact and as his brother was leaving he said to gregory and I, “I just love how you guys go back and forth, I love that she always has something to say back to you..” and Gregory just shook his head at his brother and they left. That night I texted Gregory ( I had given him my number when we were actually friends, even today he recalls how he got it and the little note I wrote with it… I do not though haha ) anyway I texted him that night and told him we needed to have a truce. and after many talks we finally came to a peace treaty. and the sweet flirting came back. I started to accept his compliments and even people at work started to notice our attachment to each-other. But I still had to get rid of J because by this time I had left Ellignton. I was leaving on vacation shortly after that so Gregory and I atleast had a good fresh start.

After a while

Gregory and I started flirting and being silly because he finally warmed up to everyone and everyone did to him too. But then…. he started to get mean. he started calling me ugly, and considering I would take that from J I was sure as hell not gonna take abuse from him too. I liked my job and didnt need him screwing it up. so I was mean back. and after a while it got worse and worse. to the point where he wouldn’t talk to me anymore or listen to me without saying something mean and everybody else thought it was funny too. I would bitch and hate coming to work and other people would try to intervene after I complained about him but then he’d say that I was just being mean back so they started separating us. which I still didn’t even like that. I didn’t like the abuse from him but I still couldn’t take being away fromhim. we had a magnetic attatchment to eachother and I know he felt it too. I think thats why he was so mean to me at first, cause I would fight it off because of J and he didnt want to fight it but he had too because I was fighting it. The Irony of it all..